Month: August 2017

My Goals

What Are Your Goals

People I have talked to, books I have read, or podcasts I have listened to within the last few years. It’s unbelievable the number of people that don’t have goals or kind of just roll with whatever it is they want to do or are aiming for in life. They might say, ooh that would be cool to do that or maybe one day I hope to have this or that. I don’t think that’s a goal, you have heard that statement hundreds of times.

Without a plan and just going with the flow or whatever it is you are doing day in and day out. If that’s your attitude, then what you think are goals are actually just dreams. If you’re not going after it with everything you have and giving it your all, then what are you really accomplishing? Honestly, it almost seems kind of pointless, if you are not fully committing to it.

I Think I Understand

Again how I said I think I’m starting to put everything together, and starting to understand life a little bit? Well, this is just my opinion, and what I think of course. I mean it’s my website it’s all my opinions haha. With me being a Christian and believing in something bigger than myself, we were all put here for a reason. I also believe why we are on earth and living out a purpose and are duties that are already planned out for us. I believe that God gives us some choices that will lead to whatever it is we are destined to do or follow through with.

With that said, with whatever time you and I have left on Earth. Don’t you think it’s time to change your ways and start trying to better yourself and make the most of it? In my earlier years, I was lazy and like I said earlier I just rolled with whatever came my way. I complained about it and didn’t do anything about it. I just let that cloud hang around and stay with me for far too long. It’s too late now to go back in time to fix my mistakes and fix my poor attitude I had in school all of those years.

Write It Out

With everything I said, I’m not perfect I miss writing down my goals some days I’ll admit it. Even If I miss a day or two of writing them down. Next, to my bedroom door, I have my list. At the top it’s marked March 25, 2020, so if you’re wondering what that day is? That’s the day I turn 30 and that’s the day that I want to accomplish all of my goals. I have about five or six that are my main focus and what I’m really working towards. Then I have a few others that I want to accomplish. They are more physical so if my body holds up and I’m healthy, then I’ll go for it.

Here are my goals, and they have been on my board next to my door since July 12, 2015. That’s when I decided to do this, and that’s really when my new mindset began to shift. Enough was enough, one day it just hit me. It was about time I do something with my life and started working towards something. You can be a new person like I’m trying to be, all you have to do is decide right now? It really is that simple, decide what it is you want in life. Come up with a plan and do something about it.

Time

Stop wasting time, every day is special and WE all, I definitely included in that. I think it’s about time we start showing this gift that we are given every day that we call TIME, some respect. We need to start making the most of our life. Stop taking advantage of this beautiful gift we get every day. What are you going to do about it? Make something of yourself or just say screw it and just keep wasting time? What are you going to decide and do from this point going forward?

Learning Disability

Chapter 3

My learning Disability is probably the worst thing that has ever happened to me. At the same time, one of the best things that have ever happened to me. I was diagnosed in 2nd-grade. 

School

School through those years, was HELL for me. Sure, there were good days and good times, of course, no question about it. If I had a few good days or a week, the following week or month would be worse. It felt like a giant roller coaster, going up and down, twist and turns bouncing all over the place.

As the years went on, my issues and LD problem seem to get worse. Now that I was getting older, and school got harder and I was getting farther and farther behind. Even though I had a handicap that didn’t matter. I still had to keep up with the homework and the tests.

Embarrassment

If I was in middle school 7th or 8th grade. My reading level was a 3rd or 4th-grade level. I couldn’t spell, I was very slow at reading. I just struggled all around with everything that had to do with school. Even with getting extra help from the teachers, I still struggled. The teachers would always make sure I had a seat upfront. Just so I would be closer and maybe that would help me pay attention better. News flash it didn’t help.

Sometimes I would get an extra day or two if we had a big project. If we had a test and I didn’t finish by the end of the class. I could stay and finish it, or go to another room and finish it. I would get extra time on big tests, or a teacher would read the questions to me. Imagine how I felt with that, having a “special” teacher in the room with me with my whole class. I would just get so embarrassed and felt stupid. I just wanted to crawl into a hole. They tried everything to help me. I’m beyond grateful for all the help from all of my teachers over the years.

New

Bring on freshman year, I’m at a new school and finally in High School. Only four more years Peter and you are free, from this prison. That’s all I kept telling myself. On the flip side, only four more years and then WHAT is all I kept telling myself? It was a catch 22, I will be done with school. I’m sure as heck not going to college, what will I do then? All of these thoughts were going through my head, almost every day of HS.

Every day I got closer to my ultimate goal of getting that stupid piece of pepper and graduating. I had NO clue what to do next? I was so focused on graduating and reaching that milestone that was my one and only goal at the time. The only problem with that attitude and focus day in and day out. I focused on the future too much and missed out on my present as the days went by? The next thing I knew, graduation morning was here and I just squeaked by with a 2.0 GPA. I’m not proud of it, but I passed I didn’t care. 

My Issues

To this day, and every day that follows I will always have trouble, and my issues will always hang over me like a cloud where ever I go. Now at the age of 28, I’m starting to get better with it every day. I’m getting to the point, I have this disability and this handicap and it won’t change, I just have to roll with it. For the longest time I would Pray and a plea to God, why me, why did you do this?

I still don’t have the answer and I still don’t know what my purpose is. In the meantime, maybe I could turn this weakness of mine into something better? Maybe I could turn this, stupid disability into something bigger and better and try and make a difference with it?

Big Names

Did you know there are a lot of big names that are Dyslexic? Albert Einstein, Richard Branson, The Wright Brothers, Henry Winkler, Henry Ford, Thomas Edison, Alexander Graham Bell, Steve Jobs, Ludwig Van Beethoven, Walt Disney, John F. Kennedy, Tom Cruise. As you can see they all went on to accomplish amazing things.

That’s why I can’t use it as an excuse anymore. I may not become a president, or an actor, to name a few. That doesn’t mean I can’t be successful. It just means I need to work a little harder. Get up a little earlier than the average person to get ahead. The good thing is, I don’t want to be average and just fit in anymore. That’s not me anymore, there’s a new Peter in town. I want to stand out and make a difference in the world. Having an impact on people’s lives is what I want. Every day I want to do the best I can until I take my last breath.

Mindset

If I want to publish my books. That means I’m going to have to work harder than most, just to keep up with people around me. I want to make the most of my life now and make an impact on people’s lives.

With all of that said I can’t keep moping about with this cloud hanging over me. These were the cards I was dealt with. I need to make it work and keep going. My LD is stuck with me, I have to accept that now. I can’t change that, it’s who I am. Even though that’s who I am, it doesn’t mean I can’t put it to good use. With my new mindset, I have started to build the last few years. It’s an easy answer, challenge excepted. 

My First Post

Welcome

Welcome to my first post The World Through My Dyslexic Eyes. This is the real Peter A Harrower. One of the reasons why I’m doing this is to get my name out there. To share with people who I really am, and what I’m really about. I’ve kept so much inside of me and kept a lot of my life private. It’s time to share that with the world and try and turn it into something positive.

My goal is to become a published author and to share my writing with the world. We all have our gifts and talents. Of course, we all have our weaknesses or even things we wish we could change. That’s what makes every one of us special, we are all unique and special in our own way. This is my first post and all new to me. Be patient why I try and figure this out haha. 

Like me for example, I guess this is my blog so of course it will be about me a little bit. A positive, I was athletic all my life, sports were very easy for me to play or pick up. A negative, I have a Learning Disability so I was not good at school. School was very hard for me and a struggle, it was hell all those years I won’t lie.

Dyslexia

I was diagnosed at a young age, with that in the back of my head. Let’s just say growing up through the years with school and my personal life. I developed a lot of personal issues, it all started at a young age. I have been dealing with or battling since I was six years old, it hasn’t always been easy. Of course, at a young age going through all of these difficulties, I didn’t have much confidence in myself. I was always talking negatively toward myself, things along that.

With that said, I realized that I had this disability and I have to deal with it. There’s nothing I can do about it. That’s life; it was the cards I was dealt with. If I want to be successful and win in life, like I know I’m capable of. Then I have to change my ways and the lifestyle I’m living now. I can’t make excuses anymore and blame my disability. Just because I’m dyslexic or different from everyone else doesn’t mean I can’t do anything or be successful? It just means it might take me a lot longer. If it takes me a few extra turns to get to my destination or going at a slower speed. It is something I’m used to and have been dealing with my whole life.

My Comfort Zone

With my new mindset, I decided to enter a field that scared the CRAP out of me. A field that would take me way out of my comfort zone. I want to become a writer, not a one and done like some music artists. I don’t want one published book and that’s it and I move on. No, I have BIG goals; I want to share my story with the world. If you’re going to dream for something and work towards something, you might as well make it big. It should be big enough that you’re nervous about telling people. Expect them to laugh at you for chasing that goal, or judge you for pursuing that. If you don’t have that feeling, then honestly maybe those goals aren’t as big as they should be?

Welcome to my life, and my first post. All though it’s not perfect, let’s be real what life is perfect? Except for maybe in a video game or movie? We all have our ups and down’s some more than others, or some have it easier than others. Yes, that might suck sometimes, or most times. It won’t do you any good sitting around crying about it anymore. I’ve had more than enough moments like that in my life now. I’m 27, it’s time to do something with myself, and stop complaining about it. Welcome to my world, The World Through My Dyslexic Eyes.