Day 26
Getting old is another fear of mine. Being the youngest sibling and child. I have always been used to hanging out with people who are older than me. Now that I’m getting older and looking at the kids now, I’m starting to turn into the older person. That’s why getting old motivates me, but also terrifies me at the same time.
I get it, we’re all going to get old one day. Technically every day were all getting one day older if you think about it. Part of the reason why it scares me is having more regrets than the one I currently have. I don’t want to get in my 80’s 90’s whatever the age. I don’t want to look back and think, crap, I wish I would have done this or that.
Listen Up
I think when people say that or the older generation starts sharing stories. The younger generation needs to SHUT UP and listen to what they are saying and sharing. What I’m getting at is, if you actually listen to what they are saying you might learn something. After all, they have experienced more life then you at the time. Who knows what advice they might have stored away for you? Maybe they went through the same thing you’re going through right now at the moment.
If you ask an older person do they regret anything or wish they could change anything? How they answer that short question, is how you find out the type of life that person lived. If they are happy and cheerful, maybe they had a lot of hard years and tuff times. Overall, they are happy and lived a good life, then that’s all that matters. Well don’t do what I did or I’m stupid, I shouldn’t have done this or that. If you hear something like that right out the gate then listen up. They are about to drop some knowledge on you.
Life Is What You Make It
This is why getting old scares me because I’m scared I won’t live up to my potential. I want to make the most of my life, I don’t want to use my faults or my past as an excuse anymore. That’s what I’m trying to do now, make up for the time I lost in my earlier years. That’s why I’m working so hard now and why I have tunnel vision. We only have one life, we need to all start making the most of it. Enjoy the short stay we have on earth, to the best we can.
This isn’t a reason why it scares me, it’s just a side note. My great-grandmother died at 100 years old. She was born in 1908-2008. Think about that, 100 years everything she saw the good and the bad. Now I was too young to really think about it, and plus she lived in Michigan so I only saw here for a few days once a year. I just wish I was old enough to ask her questions, and just pick her brain about life and what it was like in 1930 or any random year. When else do you get a chance to ask someone questions like that?
I’m A Big Kid
Grams was hilarious, she would visit us in Lancaster every once and awhile. One of my favorite memories of her was when she was like 96 maybe and helping us rake leaves one fall day. I’ll never forget it, she was so sweet and so nice. Now, this particular story doesn’t scare me. It’s a small positive that can come from life and what you experience every day in your lifetime. In the end, I think Grams had a great life. Now, if you knew her background, you might question it a little bit. Some of the stuff that she went through or what happened to her. After all those years she didn’t let it get to her. She kept doing her thing and living life to the fullest, she didn’t use her age as an excuse.
I’m only 27 now so I still have a long time to go and a lot of life in front of me hopefully. From the old farts, sorry the older generation ahead of me haha that I talked to. They said it’s not so much about the age, its what you do and how you feel. Its true I completely agree, I don’t feel 27. I still feel like I’m in my early 20’s or could be in high school still. Now when I’m with my nephews or nieces I feel like I’m there age. Probably because I’m such a big kid, I think that’s a good quality to have. That’s another prime example, it’s not the number its what you do and how you feel.
You Can Control The Outcome
In a few months, It will be 10 years since I graduated, so that sounds weird. So if you haven’t noticed, life does go by fast in case you missed it. Instead of getting distracted and trying to focus on whats next. Maybe it’s about time we start living in the present? You don’t want to get to that next age bracket with regrets. That’s what motivates me to start living now and not worry about what happens down the road once I get there. I know it’s easier said than done sometimes, I still struggle with it sometimes.
This is why you can’t let your fears beat you and win. If you let your fears control you, what kind of life is that? It’s not a good life, I’m sure you saw that coming. That’s why it’s about time we all start living and embracing whats in front of us instead of running away and hiding. How are you going to get stronger and grow in life if your hiding in the shadows? Its about time you get out of your comfort zone or safe room. Now is the time to start moving forward, and start living. Don’t let your fears control your life anymore, like what I used to do.