If life is a book and you are the author of your life. What would you want to say, your life is your message? We are all authors and were 15 days into your new chapter in your book of life. Has it been productive or no? If you’re doing it right, you should already have an idea of what your answer should be?
If you ask me and I had to answer, my answer would be no. I’m probably 50-50 so far with my goals for the year. If you want to know the kind of person you are in life, just answering how I’m doing so far, this year will tell you. You could look at that as it could be worse, or it could be better. So, which one are you, which one did you pick?
As far as my blogging and website side of life and continuing to share my story. I’m still on point and halfway to completing my first goal of the year. That’s very exciting and I’m feeling good about that. On the flip side, I have been slacking with my sales goal for LancasterPA.com. It’s a mindset sometimes, sales are not a walk in the park and it can be hard. That’s part of the reason why some days I kept trying to make excuses to call people and follow new leads. It’s not so much the rejection that bothers me. Sure, I don’t like it and I wonder what I could have done better. I’m used to getting rejected and have about 105 plus reasons why I’m used to it.
Just because I don’t enjoy it that much right now and haven’t been putting the time into it I should. Doesn’t mean I gave up on it. Just like my book, I haven’t published it yet and people keep asking me about it. As much as I appreciate people asking about it and wanting to read it, and trust me I’m very grateful for that. At the same time when my parents are officially done going through it and reading it from a different perspective of my life growing up. Once that’s done and I’m ready to send it to get published. I know right before I hit the send button, not trying to be too dramatic about it. That will be the scariest moment in my life. At the same time, it will be the most exciting moment in my life.
Once I submit it and the send the book, that’s only the begging to my message and what I’m trying to accomplish in my life. Once my book becomes available to the public and people can purchase it, that’s when the fun begins. That will be the time to get my book into as many kids hands as possible. This book is not about the money. I don’t know how much I will get paid per book, even if it’s a penny or a quarter per book I don’t care. My story and what I’m trying to share and accomplish with my book is way bigger than filling my pockets.
Publishing a book has been my number one goal for almost seven years. Besides going to school, I mean I kind of had to haha. My relationship and partnership with writing have been my longest relationship in my life to this point. As funny as that sounds I know haha, it’s true. This book has been a three-year project of mine. That’s why I’m so committed to finishing this project and my book.
It’s not just seven years invested into these books. It’s seven years that has brought me happiness and hope in my life. Through all the bad times. Writing has been one of the few things that have brought me peace and excitement with living every day and has given me hope. That’s something I have not had growing up as a young, confused, angry kid through school over the years.
The Real Me
In the end, it’s just a stupid book. I could care less about those pieces of paper being put together for me. What matters and what’s most important to me, is what I do with what’s on that paper. That’s my life, and who I am forever sketched onto those papers. That’s the real me, the real Peter A. Harrower. I finally committed to something other than myself.
Where I am now in my life and with what I have seen in my 27 years so far. I could care less what people think of me, my book, and what I’m trying to do. Do I want people to like me yes, I do? I try and be a nice person and treat people with the respect they deserve, but you can’t please everyone. The only people that matter to me. The only people I want to hear from are the people that need to hear my story. I have been through a lot and had a lot of inner battles with myself for years, and now look at me?
I Know What Matters
I’m not doing this for the glory and the recognition and the fame. I could care less about that, you can have it. All I want is what I always wanted. To try and make the world a better place than it was when I came into it. I want to help kids that are confused and felt lost like me because I know what it’s like. A lot of time was wasted dealing with that over the years. I don’t want other kids to waste this precious gift of life.
That’s why I need to get my story out to those kids that need to hear it. I’m not perfect, not even close, what I do know is this. The person I am today, I’m now starting to understand who the person I’m meant to become. I know the kind of message I want to leave behind before I take my last breath. The question you need to ask yourself is, do you?