When one door closes, another opens, but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us. We all have our moments that we are focused or interested in. Excited about a new opportunity that’s waiting for us on the other side of that door. What happens once we open the door? It’s not what we expected or it’s not as good as we had imagined? Are mind was thinking one thing. When in all reality, what was placed in front of us was something completely different.
Sure it sucks and it’s frustrating and every other emotion you would want to share or say. Just like the quote says. Why do we get so tied up and invested in the door that’s shut in front of us? Clearly, that moment or situation that was in front of us is now over. Why is it so hard to move on sometimes? Is it because we invested so much time into whatever was in front of us? Maybe because we were expecting one thing. Once the door swung open what we saw was completely different.
It’s frustrating I know, why isn’t it easier to move on? Whether your in that moment or you’re upset or angry, for whatever your time frame is. We all handle life differently of course.
How do you handle these situations waiting for you? With the unknown staring, you down waiting and waiting for you. How you respond to that letdown and the negative news that might be waiting in front of you. It’s a stepping stone in what kind of person and difference your gonna make in people’s lives. How you react to whatever is placed in front of you. That’s what people are going to see and remember you by.
What if you really don’t know me, I mean let’s be real nobody really knows me. Just like I don’t really know you, or maybe your close friends don’t really know you. In some cases, I think we all keep a lot of stuff buried deep within us. I say that because I still have a lot deep inside of me, that not many people know to this day.
Time For A Change
As much as it still terrifies me to open up and share my true self. I realize enough is enough if I want to get better and help fix my problems and issues. Then I need to open up that door in front of me and let everything out. As much as I don’t want to. Again it’s a 50-50 chance that it could come back to bite me in the butt with doing that. Then again it’s a 50% chance that I can let go of these burdens I have on my shoulders weighing me down after all of this time.
Being 27 still with no clue with what I want to do with myself. Having three part-time jobs at the moment. Of course, doing my blog and working on my books trying to get them out to the world. Now two of those jobs I’m getting paid in. One of those jobs is a hobby that I’m trying to turn into a career. Having three jobs and putting in hours beyond hours in a week, you have to give up certain things.
There is only so much free time I have during the week. Now the closer I get to publish my book, or once I’m done with a new post. Before I hit publish I look at the post button and imagine what good or bad that might come from it? In most cases, it will probably be more good than bad hopefully. It’s probably just my head playing mind games with me.
I emailed 300 agents about my books and received 105 responses saying no, they weren’t interested. Not looking for a pity party and anyone to feel bad for me. My whole life I have been getting rejected and used to hearing no.
I didn’t pass the military test three times to enlist in the military, that sucked. I already mentioned my emails. My dating history is kind of a joke, I don’t really have a history. In school and my early life, I had these dark clouds constantly over me all my life. Plus not to mention all of the side effects I developed from age six to this very moment as I’m sitting here writing this. Feeling stupid and useless and wondering why was I even born, and battling depression for years and years.
I’m not looking for you to feel bad for me. Honestly, that is the last thing I want with this. I’m just a guy who is trying to make it in life, and make a difference in people’s lives and make the most of my short stay here on earth. I know people have had a harder childhood or have been in worst situations than me, I get that and I completely agree with you. With all of my personal issues, I’m beyond blessed. I have a great family and people that care about me and love me.
I believe a number of doors in front of us are endless. If one door closes well then you move on and go to the next door and so on. With everything that happened to me, I can’t give up now, and neither can YOU. It doesn’t matter what situation you are in at the moment, just keep going and keep working as hard as you can. Some people have to work harder and think outside of the book.
If so then who cares, that’s what makes you and your story so special and so unique. Going through all of those hard times, again sucks at the moment and you can feel so weak and useless and wonder why should I bother. That moment once you figure it out, or you turn things around it makes everything totally worth it. So embrace your journey and make the most of it. Whatever you do, don’t stop. Just keep searching and looking for the next door ahead of you. If that doesn’t work, then make your own door.