This Is Who I Am

The Real Peter

This is who I am, and being as serious as possible You can either expect who I am and the hiccups and Issues I have, or you move on it’s that simple. Before you jump to conclusions after you read this post, and start to understand who I really am. Maybe you should look in the mirror and figure out who you are? Do you like who you are, and the person you are becoming? The question itself is an easy one to ask, but the hard part is being honest. That will be the ultimate test for yourself. It’s one thing to be one person or act a certain way in front of other people, it’s another to act a certain way in front of yourself.

Keep Growing Every Day

I’m not perfect, I have my faults, my lows, and highs and things I wish I could get better in and change. This might be a surprise but I’m sure you do as well. Overall, I think I’m a good person and have a good heart and willing to help those in need. Now could I do better in some of those fields, well, of course, I can, we all can do better? That just gives us something to keep working on and trying to get better in. That’s life, we should be trying to get better and keep growing every day.

I’m very competitive, I hate losing. I use my sense of humor and sarcasm as a shield sometimes, trying to protect others from my real self. Having lots of ups and downs in my life over the years, I developed a lot of anger and hatred toward myself. Thinking I will never be good enough or be the person that people really think I am. I’m very protective of my family and especially to my sisters and nieces. I have been around women my whole life. Now I still don’t understand them, but I grew up having four mothers and still learning haha.

Learn From Your Mistakes

With all of that said, I have my pros and definitely my cons. Overall though, it’s hard for me to see it sometimes because I’m such a hard critic to myself and others sometimes. Part of the reason with that I think is because I know what my past was like and how I used my disability as an excuse over the years. I don’t want my nephews or nieces to give half the effort I did or have the poor attitude I had over the years growing up. I know where that negative mindset will take you and how much damage it can cause you down the road.

Once I finished writing The World Through My Dyslexic Eyes, I knew there was more I needed to do. I needed to find another platform to share who I am. So here we are, seven months later and I’m still blogging.

I Judged Myself

I’m just a kid that developed a lot of bad habits and side effects over the years from a young age. I blamed God for what he placed on me, I hated the world for far too long. I cursed myself for years and years, thinking I’m stupid I can’t accomplish anything in life with my Learning Disability. What good can this Dyslexic kid even do in the world?

How I respond to my questions or negative mindset I had for far too long is like this. Will my book impact people and play a difference in their lives? I have no idea, I hope it does somehow, but that’s for you to decide. All I can do is be honest and do the best I can and keep sharing my story. If people are looking and searching for answers to issues they or their kids are going through. Deep down, I think my life, books or even blog will help them in some way. All I can do is keep sharing my story and trying to help people along this ride were on.

Keep Searching

It has been a long and very bumpy journey so far over the years. Some people might have it worse than me or some might have it easier than me, that’s life our paths are all different. For me, I wouldn’t change a thing, after 27 years. I’m finally at a place I’m starting to like who I’m becoming. In the last three years, I finally accepted who I am and what issues I’m going to have the rest of my life.

I can’t read fast, I’m horrible at spelling. I just squeaked by in school with almost a 2.0 GPA. I developed a lot of personal side effects over the years with my disability. I have anger issues with myself to this day. I battled depression for years and contemplated suicide for a number of years a long time ago. Even with those clouds hanging over me, there’s always light and good on the other side. You just need to keep searching for the light and not give up.

Finally I Get It

I’ll be 28 in 12 days, and you can ask anyone in my family. I think right now I feel more like a kid and having more fun now than I ever did in my past. Just look at this picture, that’s me trying to be a bull and chase one of my nephews. It doesn’t matter what you’re going through in life, don’t give up and don’t be afraid to embrace who you really are.

I’m a big kid at heart, I want to help kids just like me. I know what its like to feel alone and have these side effects as a kid growing up and weighing me down. I truly think I can be that help for kids with my story. I just need a chance, I’m still trying to figure out how I can do that. That’s part of the journey of life every day, you get out of it what you put in.

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