Think About It
Who are you? Have you ever really thought about it before? Are you embarrassed about which group you fall under, or do you embrace it and are proud of it? There’s nothing to be ashamed or embarrassed about, we are all different. We all have unique and special talents, or quirks we wish were a little different or we could change.
For me personally, it might surprise most of you but when it all comes down to it, I’m an introvert. Going back to first grade when everything started to change for me. From that point and going forward I have always kept to myself. I have always had feelings and embarrassment and being ashamed of everything I have been dealing with. I kept it all to myself and was ashamed and embarrassed by who I really was.
Naturally, I would always be thinking and talking to myself. This all gets tied in to being self-conscious about myself. It’s only fitting when it get’s broken down, that If I had to pick one or the other I’m an introvert. Now I didn’t choose to be this way, it wasn’t like picking a sports team to follow. It’s just who we are, and how we react and respond to situations we are placed in.
Now in some cases, I’m more along the lines of an Ambivert. Honestly, I just found out about Ambivert like a month ago haha. I never heard of it before. I love having fun and hanging out with people and making people laugh and having a good time. So naturally I enjoy talking to people and meeting new people, and I don’t mind going up to a stranger and talking to them. I might not always want to do it, or maybe be a little hesitant to do it but I will if need be.
I love my alone time and quiet time. Sometimes I enjoy it too much. The last few years when I had my battles with depression, and in those shadows for a few years. Being alone and by yourself for too long can be very bad, and not healthy. You need a happy medium and a healthy mix of both. I was in a dark place for far too long. I’m now paying the price for it. I’m trying to get out now and looking for the light at the end of the tunnel.
I know what it’s like to be angry, upset, sad you name it I probably felt it. Honestly, it sucks, and it’s not fun. I don’t want people to feel useless and feel like they don’t belong or a nobody. I wouldn’t wish that on anybody. Well, except for maybe to my sister’s ex-boyfriend’s haha. But that’s, of course, being the protector I am and looking out for my sister’s.
Never Judge A Book By Its Cover
Again this might be surprising to most of you. It’s true I might seem happy or like I have it all together all the time. If you knew me in high school or even now for example. I hate to break it to you people, but I don’t. I’m trying to find my purpose and direction just like you. The only thing is I’m not begging for attention like some of you. I don’t like being the center of attention.
Sure if I make a joke in front of a crowd or something that’s one thing. But if its all eyes on me, no I’m not a fan and try to avoid that. I don’t like that feeling of being ashamed and angry, so why would you? That’s why I put on that mask and try and do my part to make you and everyone else I can happy. Sure I’m very sarcastic, I know I’m sorry. It’s not always my intention, It’s just a bad habit I picked up.
In The End
What are you, who are you? It doesn’t matter what category you fall under. You can either be ashamed of it and hide in the shadows like I did for far too long. Or you just accept it and embrace it, and try and change and move your way toward the middle like I did. You can stay one side and stay on one path your whole life if you want. If that’s you and your ok with that, well then keep going. If you want a new challenge and try and better yourself and embrace something new and try a different path to see whats out there then do something about it.
Now embrace you and realize you are who you are, it’s true there is only so much you can change about yourself. Don’t forget, something you can change. You don’t have to stay in that rut you are in or hiding in. You can step out of the dark and not be ashamed. Who know’s what kind of an impact you might have on others. Sharing your story or giving that advice you have, could be a massive turning point for that special person. Again don’t be ashamed of who you are, embrace it and keep doing the best you can day in and day out.