Do You Believe
I believe we all have a purpose and we’re all meant to do something special in our life. Now some will be legendary and go on to do amazing things. Others might be a little on the smaller scale and maybe not as crazy. Now that doesn’t mean they are not important or not special. It just means they were meant for something different.
It started when I was younger and growing up. I always believed I had a purpose and was meant for something special. Now I had no idea what that was. Even in my bad years I never stopped believing it. Some days I would consider it a win if I got out of bed.
Through it all I never stopped believing, some days If we’re being honest. I had to lie to myself about my purpose and to help keep me going. Now it was kind of funny and stupid because I knew I was lying to myself. As sad as it sounds or it might be, it worked sometimes.
I Lied Constantly
If you don’t have a purpose then you don’t have a life. Somedays I would tell myself, I don’t know what my purpose is or what I meant to be doing, now what? That was a lie I or we tell ourselves sometimes. Because we all have a purpose we just don’t know what it is yet. We all have a purpose, some are bigger than others. Others will, unfortunately, be cut shorter than some.
That’s life that’s how it works sometimes, and there is only so much we can control. Now the good thing is work ethic and what we want to do today or tomorrow is up to us. Just because you don’t know your purpose or what you are meant to do, doesn’t mean you don’t have one. Who knows maybe where you are right now, or what you’re doing at this moment. Is helping build you up for what’s in front of you, and what’s going to happen in the near future.
Somedays It Sucks
For me, I believe from ages 6-25 was all building me up to what it is I’m meant to do. I’ll be honest I don’t have the best patients. I wanted to know right away, I’m sure like most people in whatever situation they are in. I thought if I find my purpose now or figure out whatever the heck I’m supposed to do. Well, then I can start on it already and start following through with my purpose in life no matter what it was. I got so focused on the end product and where I was meant to go, I got distracted by where I was in life and the journey I was currently going through.
Somedays it’s hard to enjoy the journey, and life is hard and it’s not easy. Well, I hate to break it to you, but that’s life. Not every day is going to be a breeze. Not every day is going to be horrible, well for your sake hopefully not haha.
All those years in my past, Peter was telling me I do have a purpose and I am meant for something special. God didn’t mess up on me, I was just in a bad place and Fred my alter ego was just trying to bring me down. It was easier that way, I was waving the white flag I just didn’t care anymore and gave up. I let Fred control me and take over, I know it was wrong at the time and I knew what he was doing. But I was so weak and vulnerable I didn’t care, I had no fight left in me.
No Backup Plan
Yes, it was a roller coaster of a life. I was on and had a lot of ups and downs over the years. Overall, I made it and I have never felt better and more alive. Sure, every once and awhile I have brief moments about what if it doesn’t work? What if nobody buys my book or the few views on my blog I’m getting now just stop? Well, I don’t know what to say to that, I just try to avoid those poor thoughts. Because I don’t want to think, well if it doesn’t work out then I tried or I’ll go back to my plan B. People I have no plan B, writing is my passion and I believe this is what I’m meant to do. Will it be an easy road of course not, it’s already been a long bumpy journey so far?
Writing is my purpose, I believe writing will take me to where I’m supposed to be one day. Once again, I don’t know where that is or how to get there. You just need to take it one day at a time, one step at a time.
What’s Your Purpose
It’s easy to think were the problem or if only this would have happened or I did this or that. It doesn’t matter what the situation is, everything happens for a reason good or bad. What you do with those situations is how you figure out who you are and what you’re capable of doing. Will you make the most of your situations or let whatever situations and issues come your way make you? You do have a purpose just like I do. You might not know what it is yet, but it’s ok I’m right there with you trying to figure it out.
That’s no reason to give up and throw in the towel. It might suck right now, and be very frustrating. Now is the time to keep fighting for what you want in life. What is it you want to do with your life? If you can’t answer that question, then keep living and keep learning and working. When the time is right it will come to you, and your purpose and life will all make sense one day.